There is so much going on right now with the startup of the church, new house, two teens graduating and going off to college this year and the constant search for paying jobs. Surely if I had known that we would loose our jobs upon packing everything and moving into a 5 bedroom house, I would have stayed in my 2 bedroom rental. God has that unusual way about Him, you know, leaving out information. He will speak to your heart and show you a glimpse of what He has for you, but will not tell you how you are going to get there.
I am learning that the word Pastor is a verb, which is a content word that denotes an action, occurrence, or state of existence; not a noun as a person, place or thing. Pastor is synonymous with Faith and Sacrifice. Our whole lives is structured around a promise or a word that God has spoken to us. Not just mere words, but a Word from the Lord. Which is more secure than money in the federal reserve. Romans 1:17 "For therein is the righteousness of God revealed from faith to faith: as it is written, The just shall live by faith." This scripture has been illuminated to me like never before. It is not by our own ability that we live. But everything we do, our very exsistence is saturated by faith. Everyday that I wake up I can tangebly feel my faith being submerged again in the word of God. Without faith, I do not know how we will eat, how we will keep this house, how we will make it. But I must put my trust in the God who is incapable of telling a lie. He said that He would not leave us, neither will He forsake us. And everyday we eat and we wake up to another day in this big beautiful house, and everyday He proves to us that He is there.
I'm reminded of Peter who was filled with excitement to see Jesus walking on the water. This was something new and exciting and had never been done before. Peter's excitement superseded his inability and he began to walk on the water with Jesus. As soon as Peter realized he was doing something that was impossible to do, he began to sink. Like Peter, the excitement of doing something great with God overruled any doubt as my husband and I stepped out with Jesus to Launch this church in a city were we know noone, without money and without jobs. In our desire to be closer to Him we asked "Jesus bid us come unto you" and He said "come." Now that we are out on the water doing something that is suppose to be impossible to do, we cannot lose faith and sink. We must keep our faith in the one who has given us the desire to come closer to Him in the first place.